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On time [14 Jan 2009|11:59am]
Time goes from the future,
which is merely our idea
about the direction of the evolving present,
to the evolving present
which contains within it all of the past..

The past is ever present in memory
The future is ever present in latent possibilities
The present is ever present in
the presence of the present.
There is no time but NOW.
No moment but THIS.

With that being said- it would appear that past and future are illusions of mental abstraction and that all that exists is the present moment..

This, however, is not the whole truth
because the truth cannot be spoken.
The misapprehension arises from
a duality inherent in the language..
To speak about something is to delineate it from other things.
It is to draw a line between different forms to differentiate..
It is to draw the figure out against a ground..
Thus- To speak about the present moment
once you have realized the futility of grasping
to ideas of the past and future
is to continue in the same trap
because "the present" or the "now" is only meaningful
in relation to the past and the future-
To what is not "now"..
of which there is absolutely nothing.
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The Tao of Anarchy [14 Dec 2008|04:43pm]

"The Tao is that from which one cannot deviate; that which one can deviate is not the Tao."...

The Chinese, and Taoist, term which we translate as "nature" is tzu-jan, meaning the spontaneous, that which is so of itself. We might call it the automatic or automotive were it not that these words are associated with mechanisms and artifacts which are not truly "so" of themselves. Nature as tzu-jan might be taken to mean that everything grows and operates independently, on it's own, and to be the meaning of the verse:

(As I) sit quietly, doing nothing
Spring comes and grass grows of itself.

Bit it is basic to the taoist view of the world that every thing-event (shih or wu) is what it is only in relation to all others. The earth, and every tiniest thing upon it, inevitably "goes-with" the sun, moon, and stars. It needs them just as much as it needs, and consists of, it's own elements. Conversely, the sun would not be light without eyes, nor would the universe "exist" without consciousness-- and vis versa. This is the principle of "mutual arising" (hsian sheng) which is explained in the second chapter of the Tao Te Ching.

The principle is that if everything is allowed to go it's own way the harmony of the universe will be established, since every process in the world can "do it's own thing" only in relation to all others. The political analogy is Kropotkin's anarchism-- the theory that if people are left alone to do as they please, to follow their nature and discover what truly pleases them, a social order will emerge of itself. Individuality is inseparable from community. In other words, the order of nature is not a forced order; it is not the result of laws and commandments which beings are compelled to obey by external violence, for in the Taoist view there really is no obdurately external world. My inside arises mutually with my outside, and though the two may differ they cannot be separated.

Thus every thing's "own way" is the "own way" of the universe, of the Tao. Because of the mutual interdependence of all beings, they will harmonize if left alone and not forced into conformity with some arbitrary, artificial, and abstract notion of order, and this harmony will emerge tzu-jan, of itself, without external compulsion. No organization, in the political and commercial sense of the word, is organic. Organizations, in this sense, are based on the following of linear rules and laws imposed from above- that is,of strung-out, serial, one-thing-at-a-time sequences of words and signs which can never grasp the complexity of nature, although nature is only "complex" in relation to the impossible task of translating it into these linear signs. Outside the human world, the order of nature goes along without consulting books-- but our human fear is that the Tao which cannot be described, the order which cannot be put into books, is chaos.

If tao signifies the order and course of nature, the question is, then, what kind of order? Lao-Tzu (ch. 25) does indeed use the term- hun-- obscure, chaotic, turgid-- for the state of the Tao before heaven and earth arose, but I do not think that this can mean chaos in the sense of mess and disorder such as we see when things formerly organized are broken up. It has rather the sense of hsuan, of that deep, dark, and mysterious prior to any distinction between order and disorder-- that is, before any classification and naming of the features of the world.

The unnamed is heaven and earth's origin;
Naming is the mother of ten thousand things.
Whenever there is no desire (or, intention),
one beholds the mystery;
Whenever there is desire, one beholds the manifestations.
These two have the same point of departure
but differ (because of) the naming.
Their identity is hsuan-
hsuan beyond hsuan, all mystery's gate.

The "chaos" of hsuan is the nature of the world before any distinctions have been marked out and named, the wiggly Rorschach blot of nature. But as soon as even one distinction has been made, as between yin and yang or 0 and 1, all that we call the laws or principles of mathematics, physics, and biology follow of necessity, as has been demonstrated in the calculus system of G. Spencer Brown(1). But this necessity does not appear to be a compulsion or force outside the system itself. In other words, the order of the Tao is not an obedience to anything else. As Chuang-Tzu says, "It exists by and through itself"; it is sui generis (self-generating), tzu-jan (of itself so), and has the property of that forgotten attribute of God called aseity-- that which is a (by) se (itself). But in the case of the Tao the form of it's order is not only free from any external necessity; also, it does not impose its rule on the universe, as if the Tao and the universe were separate entities. In short, the order of the Tao is not law.

The Chinese word- tse comes closer than any other to what we mean by positive law-- to the laying down and following of written rules and lists of what may and may not be done, to going by the book. Thus we read in the Huai Nan Tzu book:

The Tao of Heaven operates mysteriously [hsuan]
and secretly; it has no fixed shape; it follows no
definite rules [wu-tse]; it is so great that you can never
come to the end of it; it is so deep that you can never
fathom it.

But though the Tao is wu-tse (nonlaw), it has an order or pattern which can be recognized clearly but not defined by the book because it has too many dimensions and too many variables. This kind of order is the principle of li, a word which has the original sense of such patterns as the markings in jade or the grain in wood.

Li may therefore be understood as organic order, as distinct from mechanical or legal order, both of which go by the book. Li is the asymmetrical, nonrepetitive, and unregimented order which we find in the patterns of moving water, the forms of trees and clouds, of frost crystals on the window, or the scattering of pebbles on beach sand.....

...But the Tao is not considered the boss and creator of our organic universe. It may reign but it does not rule. It is the pattern of things but not the enforced law. Thus we read in the Han Fei Tzu book (early 3rd century):

Tao is that whereby all things are so, and with which all principles agree. Principles (li) are the markings (wen) of completed things. Tao is that whereby all things become complete. Therefore it is said that Tao is what gives principles. When things have their principles, the one (thing) cannot be the other. . . . All things have each their own different principle, whereas Tao brings the principles of all things into single agreement. Therefore it can be both one and another, and is not one thing only.

This is, again, analogous to Kropotkin's anarchy. If each thing follows its own li it will harmonize with all other things following theirs, not by reason of rule imposed from above but by their mutual resonance (ying) and interdependence.

The Taoists are saying, then, that seen as a whole the universe is a harmony or symbiosis of patterns which cannot exist without each other....

...Just as every point on the surface of a sphere may be seen as the center of the surface, so every organ of the body and every being in the cosmos may be seen as its center and ruler.

This is like the Hindu-Buddhist principle of karma- that everything which happens to you is your own action or doing. Thus in many states of mystical experience or cosmic consciousness the difference between what you do and what happens to you, the voluntary and the involuntary, seems to disappear. This feeling may be interpreted as the sense that everything is voluntary- that the whole universe is your own action and will. But this can easily flip into the sense that everything is involuntary. The individual and the will are nothing, and everything that might be called "I" is as much beyond control as the spinning of the Earth in its orbit. But from the Taoist standpoint these two views fall short. They are polar ways of seeing the same truth: that there is no ruler and nothing ruled. What goes on simply happens of itself (tzu-jan) without either push or pull, since every push is also a pull and every pull and push, as in using a steering wheel. This is, then, a transactional view of the world, for as there is no buying without selling, and vice versa, there is no environment without organisms, and vice versa. This is, again the principle of "mutual arising" (hsiang sheng). As the universe produces our consciousness, our consciousness evokes the universe; and this realization transcends and closes the debate between materialists and idealists (or mentalists), determinists and free-willers, who represent the yin and yang of philosophical opinion...

Furthermore, to concieve the Tao as an unconscious energy is as much off the point as to conceive it as a personal ruler or God. But if, as is the case, the Tao is simply inconceivable, what is the use of having the word and of saying anything at all about it? Simply because we know intuitively that there is a dimension of ourselves and of nature which eludes because it is too close, too general and too all-embracing to be singled out as a particular object. This dimension is the ground of all the astonishing forms and experiences of which we are aware. Because we are aware, it cannot be unconscious, although we are not conscious of it- as of an external thing. Thus we can give it a name but cannot make any definitive statement about it- as we saw to be the case with whatever it is that is named "electricity". Our only way of apprehending it is by watching the processes and patterns of nature, and by the meditative discipline of allowing our minds to become quiet so as to have vivid awareness of "what is" without verbal comment.

The baby looks at things all day without squinting and staring; that is because his eyes are not focused on any particular object. He goes without knowing where he is going, and stops without knowing what he is doing. He merges himself with the surroundings and goes along with them. These are the principles of mental hygiene.

[excerpt from Alan Watts,, Tao: The Watercourse Way]

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The pervasive panopticon [05 Dec 2008|04:28pm]

take a walk down the streets
and this is what you'll find
at every streetlight is a camera,
biometrically designed
to recognize your face-
log it in it's database
keep track of your every movement,
every little step you take
computers model your behavior
based upon the past
to predict your every move
based upon your last
but Just Wait!- That's not all
that they have in stores
a chip in every product
that is put upon the floor
another chip in your wallet,
just walk right out the door
that's right you won't even
need human contact anymore!
it's microchips for everyone-
we just know they're so much fun!
they connect right to that database
that holds your biometric face

an eye on every corner,
an ear in every phone,
an agent in every protest,
outside of the free speech zones
the pervasive panopticon
prison of our home,
there is no need to be lonely
for you are never alone

it's the one that you can't elude
it watches in your solitude
so don't you fret and don't you cry
just talk to the all seeing eye

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Hope-nosis [30 Sep 2008|08:23pm]

Let us avert our gaze for a minute
in order to tease apart the mythic from the actual.
We can repackage and rebrand
resell an image of the American Dream
but you still have to be asleep to believe it
the switch from red to blue
from cokehead to the pepsi center speeches
of vacuous rhetoric
that capitalize on our emotions
feed on true devotion
to change
you've got a nice smile
and a handsome facade
will you be smiling as you sign the orders
to drop bombs on Afghan children
while the NSA taps our phones
and banks foreclose on our homes
i will not have unquestioned devotion to a leader
even a charismatic one
because afghan children bleed just like iraqi ones
and even iraqi children will continue to bleed
from american blackwater mercenary imperialism
regardless of whether you wrap it up in a smiley face or not
as the saying goes- "you can put lipstick on a pig"
now maybe i'm scared shitless of john mccain/sarah palin
but as always- fear derails thought
into the reptilian brain centers and stops critical thinking
and at this point- i just want to call bullshit out for what it is.
so vote if it makes you happy..
but don't think you are enacting a real change
because national politics are illusory
because nations are illusory
those boundaries only exist because we allow them to
we feed into them
perpetuate the myths
real change you can believe in
comes in freeing our minds
of the smoke screens and
seeing reality unfiltered
real hope comes when
you find the others
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Electron Individuality [02 Sep 2008|11:49am]

Electrons have something in common with people: the more information they acquire about their setting, the more they become aware of their individuality and the more belonging to a group loses its importance. As a result, the coherent harmony that binds the electrons into a fixed relationship with their environment is lost. This is what scientists at the Fritz-Haber Institute of the Max-Planck Society discovered when, with the aid of X-rays, they catapulted electrons out of molecules consisting of two nitrogen atoms.

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[26 Aug 2008|04:50pm]
"For thought cannot grasp the soul which forgetting itself plunges out of space and time into a presentiment of infinity, and now reawakens. Whoever wanted to speak of this to others, though he spoke with the tongues of angels, would feel the poverty of words. - Hegel
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The amoeba’s immortality [18 Aug 2008|06:45pm]
Evolution is the disintegration of dimensionality
through the dissolution of boundaries
the story of the amoeba's immortality
ourobouric descent/ ascent
and the return to totality
The multitude of multiverses multiplied
by the infinite
the shadow of
the source
of the totality
the totality
contains within it
all potentiality,
Within all of potentiality is
the lack of the totality,
the birth of the shadow
that we mistake for reality
return to totality
through the door of materiality
avert from the shadows
to see their source behind
a mirror of the light you shine
to which you have been blind
for the form of emptiness
is empty in form
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boundary dissolution [16 Aug 2008|06:43pm]

boundary dissolution is my new blog complete with my own RSS feed. I'll be keeping this journal for personal posts.. but other assorted blogstuff will be on there. (PS- I have a severe disdain for the word "blog".)
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Toward an Open Source Society [16 Jul 2008|12:05pm]
One of the oldest arguments against anarchism is that it is impractical, that without central authority to keep the peons in line any large project will dissolve into chaos and disorder. Yet the open source software movement provides modern day proof that anarchism works, even when not conducted by anarchists. Source code is the human readable text of a computer program, written by programmers and compiled into binary format for execution by the computer. Without the source code, it is nearly impossible to modify a computer program, or even understand how it works. Proprietary software vendors like Microsoft keep their source code confidential, distributing binary-only software to rob users of the ability to modify it for their own purposes.

Gandhi famously remarked, “First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.” Linux marked its entry into the winning phase on January 30, 2007, the day Microsoft unleashed Windows Vista on a defenseless computing public. Four years late, horribly slow, saddled with a restrictive DRM system and severely lacking in hardware support, Vista destroyed forever the idea that software is best developed by a bureaucracy. Facing a user revolt, Microsoft was forced to allow computer makers to continue selling Windows XP simply to prevent a mass defection to OS X and Linux.

So if the open source approach works so well for software, why not use it everywhere? Why not make an open source society? These are the questions the ruling establishment desperately hopes you won’t ask. Passive, isolated consumers are the life- blood of the corporate oligarchy, and that makes open source anything an enormous threat. As more and more of us turn to mutual cooperation to solve our problems, the elite will be faced with a question of their own: If anarchism is so impractical, why is it working?

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Tony Grisoni on writing The Owl in Daylight [14 Jul 2008|12:36am]

Tony Grisoni is a British screenwriter who has co-written several Terry Gilliam’s films (Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Tideland, Brothers Grimm and Lost in La Mancha).
He is currently writing the screenplay for The Owl in Daylight. The movie is produced by Electric Shepherd Productions, which is run by Anne and Laura Dick. Paul Giamatti is co-producing and will take the part of Philip K. Dick.

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anti-matter bizzaro jon [20 Apr 2008|11:15pm]
i keep having dreams where i meet myself and on several occasions- we fight and i kill him.. which in turn kills me and i wake up.

what is he? why do i keep encountering it? is this my "higher self"? am I the higher self and he is the ego? what the hell does this mean? i don't even know. it is often quite easy to put forth a front like you know what is going on but then something arises through the cracks to tell you otherwise... like when i had a dream the other night where I was a woman...when i awoke, Erin says "i had a weird dream last night where you were a woman." what does that mean? what does this arise from?

perhaps it is damn futile to search for the meaning.. perhaps i must just continue to observe this process of becoming..but i guess the mind always seeks an explanation.. so here i am. the thinker thinking and the prover trying desperately to prove.

come to think about it- i think about all this stuff about the higher selves and the lower ego.. and i think it is bullshit too. if Tat Tvam Asi, then thou art that all the time.. there is no higher and lower. only right here and now. i might be my limited ego but that ego is itself a manifestation of the one mind. that ego can contain within it- infinite awareness.. the macrocosm within the microcosm.. pouring forth from the cracks of consciousness.. breaking the dam of materiality.. the gaps between the flood of the seemingly infinite sensory data.. but something remains past that data.. we'll call it spirit.. the force driving creation drives this diatribe.. but even thus- i still dichotomize.. perhaps it isn't past the data.. but it is woven within it.. eternally intertwined within what appears to be the trash of existence. we call it god's abortion- the material world. Samsara, ridden with suffering and ruled over by the archonic forces. The Adversary.. but when really examined... when you stopped running and you really stare the fucker in the face.. you see that the adversary is just yourself. You see that the only thing between you and the divine is the divine you.. pay attention- god isn't in a golden palace.. it's the trash thrown in the gutter.

Oh yeah- and if you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him.
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Happiness is only real when it's shared. [15 Mar 2008|12:29am]
'Into the Wild' is one of the (if not THE) best movie I've ever seen..
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01100010 [12 Mar 2008|11:24pm]
i hack my reality through intentionality
defragmenting the banality of materiality
into a personality of immortality
i’m saying look through the box to see
that there ain’t no box to see
there is only you and me
and we
and this one letter-

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The Cosmic Shmuck Law [12 Mar 2008|10:10pm]
1. The more often you suspect that you may be thinking like a schmuck, the less of a schmuck you will become, year by year.

2. Conversely, the less you think you are a shmuck, the more likely every idiot idea you have will remain in your head and you will become the most awesome Cosmic Schmuck.- Robert Anton Wilson
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The Corporate Egregore: The Corporation as Servitor [11 Mar 2008|07:48am]

This article explores the identity of the corporate body and how it can often become an independent entity, outside the control of any singular individual. In magickal terms the corporation can, by virtue of its presence in memespace and its influence over the collective human psyche, become the magickal construct known as an egregore. Much of this can apply to all corporate or cooperative bodies, but the lifestyle providers that dance on our TV's, follow us down the streets and in our cars, and who gently invade our homes and minds, are the most powerful and compelling.

The modern corporation is far more than simply a building full of people that creates a product or manages resources. It exists in physical space, data space, and in aetheric space. It is a collective of intentional will committed to self-preservation, growth, and profit. It wields language and media to establish its presence and identity in the age of global trade. The corporation is unified in its focus, executes on its desires, and manipulates resources in accordance with its intent. It is in many ways an individual composed of many cooperative cells. Like the human body, the corporation maintains its identity and function in spite of the continuous recycling of its cells. The structure persists by its own will and inertia. The corporation is not bound to any one location. It can move, disperse, and distribute through data networks. It behaves with a single will, informed by the will of the corporate collective, bent towards the same end: maintaining the existence & continued growth of the corporate entity.

The genesis of the corporation was as a representation of the shared interests of a group. Soon it evolved to have the legal status roughly equivalent to a person. It has become an independent entity with the same rights as an individual (or more). Its person-hood reinforces its self-identity and the identity it projects to the world. It wants to appear human and be regarded as such. This is the only way to find intimacy with the consumer; the only way the corporation can generate trust and acceptance. This identity begins with the corporate vision but soon moves into the minds of the consumer culture where it can tap into a deeper level of emotional associations. It is at this point that it has evolved from a business entity into a psychic one.
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Reoccurring Nightmare [03 Mar 2008|07:32am]
I often don't have the most cheerful dreams in the world unless they are lucid..but the most common reoccurring dream is the one where everyone is a zombie and I'm trying desperately to get away from them. It usually ends with me getting completely overrun by zombies tearing apart my flesh. The latest zombie dream had an interesting little portal in it the others didn't that allowed me to become lucid and immune to zombiehood. I had a sheet of magick LSD in my pocket which temporarily makes you immune to the zombies and able to get away from them. It made me more aware and as a result zombie-resistant. I could push them out of my world depending on my level of awareness.

I think this quote from Gurdjieff explains my dream intuition fairly accurately-

“A considerable percentage of the people we meet on the street are people who are empty inside, that is, they are actually already dead. It is fortunate for us that we do not see and do not know it. If we knew what a number of people are actually dead and what a number of these dead people govern our lives, we should go mad with horror.”
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Viral memes [27 Feb 2008|04:30pm]
1. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
2. I will then tell what band reminds me of you.
3. Next, I will tell you what FOOD you remind me of.
4. Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. Put this in your journal.
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[22 Feb 2008|07:45pm]
"You may remember the story of how the devil and a friend of his were walking down the street, when they saw ahead of them a man stoop down and pick up something from the ground, look at it, and put it away in his pocket.
The friend said to the devil, "What did that man pick up?"
"He picked up a piece of Truth," said the devil.
"That is a very bad business for you, then," said his friend.
"Oh, not at all," the devil replied, "I am going to let him organize it."

I maintain that Truth is a pathless land, and you cannot approach it by any path whatsoever, by any religion, by any sect. That is my point of view, and I adhere to that absolutely and unconditionally. Truth, being limitless, unconditioned, unapproachable by any path whatsoever, cannot be organized; nor should any organization be formed to lead or to coerce people along any particular path. If you first understand that, then you will see how impossible it is to organize a belief. A belief is purely an individual matter, and you cannot and must not organize it. If you do, it becomes dead, crystallized; it becomes a creed, a sect, a religion, to be imposed on others. This is what everyone throughout the world is attempting to do.
- Krishnamurti
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Adelé [18 Feb 2008|09:24pm]

Adelé Kallista Meade
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Philip K. Dick Movies [11 Feb 2008|04:50pm]
Holy shit! The following Philip K. Dick movies are in production-

The Owl in the Daylight (2009, PKD biopic with screenplay written by Tony Grisoni; screenwriter for Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas)

Your Name Here (2008, Another PKD biopic but only loosely based off of his life starring Bill Pullman as "William J. Frick")

Radio Free Albemuth (2008, featuring oddly enough, Alanis Morissette)

Flow My Tears, the Policeman Said (in pre-production)

VALIS (in pre-production)
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